I want love... I want it, so bad... I miss it, being that person to someone else.

Is it bad that I said that?

My ex came over the other night to hang out. We had fun just watching tv, eating, talking and chilling basically. Then we slept.... and it was good. To wake up in the middle of the night and someone is wrapped around you, moves with you, seeks you out when you move to the edge. It. feels. awesome. That's exactly what I want. Not to say that I want that with my ex but I know what I want.

He's a great guy, always will have me smiling and I would always know that I'm beautiful but he's just not there yet and that hurts.

Online matchmaking

So I'm actively using an online "relationship" site to find a date. With my life being the way it is now i'm so dang busy I dont have time to go where the men are. So this particular site sends you matches instead of you looking through them. Ok i guess seeing as every man they send me is 5'5" or a few inches taller... I mean really?? I'm 6'1" and before you ask, Yes i made sure to click the "very important" button next to the height requirements LOL

So I've talked to 2 guys and met 0 in person. It doesn't appear I'm doing any better with this site than I could have in the club. Then there's the ones that constantly look at your picture rather than just send the message or start the process.... on to the next one.

Full tank and no where to go

You ever just want to be in love? Just feel like you're tank is filled to the brim and there's no vehicle to transfer this love to? that's how i feel. I wasted a year being something to someone and in the end we weren't what i thought we were. I possibly ruined what could have been a good love, and now i'm full of this emotion and no one to give it to. Totally sucks. Just venting