They're biting

The worst part about living down south....the bugs are horrendous... i also live in the country so to speak. I bet the bugs wouldn't be so present in the city but if i wanted to live the city life, i'd move back home. Here, you can go outside for just a couple of minutes and end up with enough mosquito bites to play connect the dots.

I had to have Garette run off a huge water bug and then while driving one crawled across the front of my car. if anyone knows me, they would know that i would pull a car over if that damn thing got into the car.

One more thing, when it rains in NY, it rains all day, nothing too serious... in Georgia, while driving home from school, it was a variable rain storm so bad i had to pull off the road b/c i couldn't see two feet in front of me. the amazing thing is watching how fast people still drive in the middle of all that. and fifteen minutes later and 9 miles down the road, it's as dry as an Arizona desert.

that's my life right now, bugs, sparatic rain and alot of itching.

blast from the past

my ex called....the one i thought could be the one.

a little background... a couple of years ago, my co-worker asked me and a friend of mine, what it was we wanted in a guy. I stated quite a bit of qualities, both physical characteristics as well as mental and spiritual. basically i wanted a man's man, physically built with some baby fat (i'm a bit of a chubby chaser), a man who took charge. A couple of days later, i met Randy, everything that was on my list. We met at my favorite pool hall and he worked right next door in my favorite dress shop and we never crossed paths until that night. I guess all of the co-incidences led to what seemed like a destined romance...however four months into the relationship be began to withdraw with the classic line "I'm going through something" however, he never told me what it was he was going through. After a couple of weeks i got tired of waiting around for him to feel better, so i broke it off.

We kept dating or at least having a physical relationship afterwards for a couple of months. One day i worked up the nerve to ask him to escort me to a wedding of an old friend of mine (my ex was the best man so i had to look good) and he told me he couldn't b/c he was with someone and it wouldn't be appropriate. I said ok and asked about his girl and then the world stopped when he told me, "she's my wife". I was heavy into weddings at the time, i just wanted to meet someone, get married and start a family and since he wanted the same thing i thought we were on the way so for us to break it off and he got married to someone else within a month, not only hurt, it felt like someone stabbed me over and over again until i just had to hang up the phone.

Over the next year he called sparatically asking about my relationship, my life etc... i always asked him why call? we were ex's, your wife wouldn't appreciate this etc etc. he would brag about his wife (which all seemed like lies). Finally, while on vacation in March 2006, he called from in front of my house (thank GOD i wasn't there) I told him i was engaged so he would back off, instead he told me he was buying a two family house and why don't my fiance and i rent out the bottom apt. I finally told him in no uncertain words, leave me alone, go home to your pregnant wife and let me live my life without interruption.

SO it's been over a year and i haven't even thought about him. I've been happy, I've moved twice and I've changed jobs twice and gone back to school. I'm happy doing what i have to do...so of course, it's time for him to call. While i was at work on a particularly busy night, i answered my ringing phone thinking it was my friend calling me back...instead a male voice answered asking if i recognized him... after yelling at whoever it was on the phone he said his name...and the world paused again, this time from annoying shock. WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM MY LIFE?

i called him back after work, which was pretty late. he asked only about me, and i got the sense of something under his voice. so i asked him "hows married life?" apparently it wasn't everything he thought it would be, his kid was 13 months... i smell divorce in his future but i didn't say that out loud. he asked if i was happy.... and i was all too happy to say yes. I may be away from Garette, but i love him, living with him (very much like married life) seemed to have the opposite effect from Randy's situation. the best part.... I felt nothing. he didn't make me happy, make me wonder what it would have been like, nothing. he is nothing to me and that's great.

incidentally i also heard from two other ex's the same night....

i had a plan

i had a plan to go to the library all day, study until 6 then take my midterm, ace it and come home to my baby to celebrate (if you know what i mean...ma, i mean by eating ;)). things are not going according to plan.

Not realizing his id expired on his bday, Garette couldn't make the train. Compounding matters was the fact that someone at his friends house where he was staying in NC, stole his money out of his bag. Not cool. So i have to wait yet another day so he can take the bus, b/c Greyhound is totally anonymous. Meaning I could probably still celebrate in the wee hours of the AM.

Then, my prescription which was left in NY, CVS has to now fill for me which will be expensive since i'm not on insurance and unlike NY which takes about 20 min or less to fill it, they need an hour so i won't be leaving the house for another hour to study in the library AND depending on traffic, it can take me 40-60 minutes to get up to school. (i do love the fact that it takes me only 10 minutes to get to work...BIG change from NY)

Am i worried? not really, i take information in pretty well and i read fast. Plus my professor is so kind as to summarize everything on powerpoint slides when he's lecturing in class and prints out copies for us all to have.... that wonderful man!

So wish me luck... i don't know what it is but i'm never ever able to study at home.

coming off the midnight high

i just worked my first overnight...and they put me to work by myself. I thought i would have had someone to bug out with and keep me company, instead i was all by my lonesome messing up stuff (was fixed eventually) and trying my best not to drop to sleep in the middle of 'mission control center'. 11pm to 7am is not whats it cracked up to be and I'm going to need allot more snacks to be able to handle it all. but i did handle it and by quarter to 8 i was headed home, head nodding to fantasia on the radio.

but now it's 1:34 and i haven't been able to sleep much since i got home although the bags under my eyes say i really need to. Sunday i have an 11pm-3am shift which should be a little better. Just have to get enough mommi time in today since she's leaving tomorrow afternoon...

side not: can you believe I'm paying more in insurance down here than i was in NY? I-effing-ronic!

atl update

everyone wants to know how i'm doing so let me tell you
I've got a job as you may have read in previous posts, Crew Accommodations for Delta Airlines. It's part time to give me the flexibility with school and getting back into the swing of things. I'm in training right now so i'm getting used to coding and scheduling etc. that's all i can say about that due to confidentiality policies.

I bought a car... i needed an automatic to get around b/c using my brothers Porsche, as much as it makes me look glamorous, is not practical. It was cool though but all his other cars were stick shift and i don't know how to drive those. Now i have an Infinity Q45. it needs minor work but it's mine and i'm thrilled.

and i now i have a pup... he'll probably be my brothers puppy since he follows Vita and Vita follows Jason. His name is Nero and right now he spends alot of time in the cage since he gets too excited and has little accidents. He looks just like Vita, grey with lighter eyes and white patches...

So that's it for now...company's here, gotta be personable.

I did get it

So I did get the job and i start training on Sunday. Go me, go me... 2-3 weeks and now i got a job.

I think i did, i think i did

So i think i got a job LOL... not quite sure.
I went on an interview yesterday, my second in Atlanta. Responses haven't been good, in fact, they haven't been at all. My resume is of course perfect for a administrative professional, but that's not what I'm looking for. Customer Service, Non-profit and Day care are all the fields I'm looking for, but since I don't have the experience, I'm not ideal.

This position must not have had a lot of responses... because they called me. It's a third shift position 7pm - 3am, or 11pm - 7am. Hospitality company making crew reservations and reservations for distressed passengers. They called me back the same day to ask me to come in Friday night for two hours to see how it goes and if i would want the job. Then the lady said "I won't be here Friday, but I'll see you Monday". So i guess I got the job.

It's part-time, so I'll be able to have the flexibility i need for school and they'll also be flexible for me going home for long weekends and what not.
ehhh, we'll see how i like it tonight. I would have to get adjusted to the nightlife. I love sleeping at night. I don't mind the 7-3, it's the 11-7 that will kill me.

Money where art thou

You know the worst part about looking for a job... You work all day, stare at a computer or newspaper circling prospects, sending out resumes, filling out forms (which incidentally they can just look at your damn resume and figure out lazy ass ppl) and you get tired like you would any normal job... you just don't get paid.

Gosh i miss regular income. It's only been a few weeks (2 weeks to be exact) but i'm broke. Moving costs a lot of money of which i have none. My vacation pay which was supposed to be put into my account on Saturday with everyone else's payroll was NOT, prompting me to send a sarcastic email (can't get ignorant when someone else is controlling the flow of your funds) to the COO and founder of my last job. Simple consideration would have dictated paying out the vacation pay on the last day like any other normal job. Intelligence would have done it when they said they would (June 30th payroll) but stupidness says "Uh we forgot"... I hate stupid people. Ignorance you can fix with knowledge, stupidness...there is no cure for.

My financial aid has been disbursed to my school however, my school has not yet applied it to my account so they can send the remainder to me.... how thoughtful. My car insurance was due yesterday, my other accounts are coming due soon and i still have NO JOB.

other than that i'm fine :)