Sometimes I wish GOD had text messaging. My message would be
"OK G, I get it"
lately it seems as if life was getting a bit hard for me to handle. Creditors calling my job (how they got the # I don't know), I owe this, I owe that, rent, bills. I know ppl said it was hard but Geez louise I didn't know how hard.
its so funny how one minute you know where your life is headed, you know what's going to happen and then boom, suddenly nothing seems right, your plans are just ideas and you have no grip on your life. I haven't felt stable in a long time and being a Taurus, that's just a bit confusing.
the trouble being, I'm not happy. geez I went to school for four years, busted my ass in classes to get someone tea and look at me like I have the audacity to look her in the eye. Then I have someone else who speaks very plainly like I don't know how to send a letter FedEx. Mind you, I work in a very small firm and I've come from very big ones so not only do I know how to send a letter, I can type it in 55wpm, format it correctly and use the big words to make it sound overly educated.
so I guess ppls underestimations, underpayment and utterly, my uninterest in this field got to the point where I can't take it anymore. I'm trying not to fall into the depressive state but everything just seems to happen together. And just when you think it's over... BAM here it comes again.
So yea, I'm weighing my options... Do I look for another job now even though I'm leaving in 8-10 months? Do I stay and ask for a raise? Can I stay here without slapping a bitch? Should I get a second job? Will that ultimately be my demise?
I have an interview tomorrow and a phone interview after that. I took the day off as a mental health day cause I'm heading down a dark path and it's not pretty. As I calm down from my latest run-in with an in-house ass, I schedule the interview, then get an email regarding the phone interview literally and hour apart. I'm listening to some gospel and suddenly I'm totally aware of the words of the song "Everything is gonna be alright" from al green playing in my ear. WOW
OK G, I get it... You're taking care of it...
I guess only time will tell
2 comments:
I feel u chick. If it's not one thing, it's another. Just when you think you're rid of the weeds in your garden, there's some in the corner you didn't notice.
I sounded like a sensai, didn't I?
Anyway, I think GOD has a pager and u remember how long it took to get back to the pagee, but HE does get back to you. I know, I've used it...many, many times.
Amen!
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