Feeling Blessed

In less than 24 hours, I will have something all my own. I'm too excited. I will be a homeowner..

Bring me to life

I woke up crazy early this morning since i couldn't seem to make it back to sleep, i went for a morning run. It felt like ice going through my lungs, but it was liberating.

Ive been basically laying in bed for a day and a half with the blahs.  I convinced myself during the week that i was ok and doing well and by Friday evening i was in the dumps again.   No appeitite, no desire to cook, just a diet of pain, tears and dread. I usually saw him on the weekend and I wint be seeing or talking to him and its hurtful.  then fact that my closest "friends" havent even checked in with me just angered me. It's been almost 5 years and the closest friend i have, i just broke up with.

Love is pain

I  know it doesn't have to be but thats where I am right now. I can still feel my heart breaking from time to time but its not too bad. Not dure if I want to date yet but I do want to at leaet talk tomsome guys and get used to that. Baby steps i keep telling myself...